Cerebrations

Feeling Poetic

I'm reposting past poems I've composed. Wala lang. I just felt a bit nostalgic. These were all written back in '04

rain

i drifted into a trance
as drops drummed heavily on the tops
into an emerging realm of boredom.
the swish of rods
hypnotically sway me into absorption
thru perilous depths of thoughts.
swimming, as though drowning,
gracious as the blaring horn jolts me
but still staring blankly
into the immense vast pane.

~ lmyd 062304

***

bliss

the hot breath of your moist mouth
on my skin,
it tingles with anticipation.
the subtleness of your touch
wreaks havoc yet is sublime.
my lips quiver as they await,
yearning with a thirst
only you can sate.
the absurdity of it all
i care not,
as i ceaselessly wait
for exquisite bliss.

~ lmyd 062304

***

slave

you haunt me,
in wanton pursuit,
whether in dreams of deep slumber
or in wakened states of consciousness.
a fragment of you,
a reminder everywhere,
i extricate myself.
sheer madness is what it is,
as the vicious cycle
ceases not,
i am enslaved once more.

~ lmyd 062304

I just realised that I wrote them all in just one day. Just goes to show how 'inspired' I was then.

Happy Holidays!

Better late than never! We just would want to greet everyone a wonderful holiday season. May the good Lord shower your lives with endless blessings in the new year ahead! Cheers! :)

Oh so true!

This existence of ours is as transient as autumn clouds. To watch the birth and death of beings is like looking at the movements of a dance. A lifetime is a flash of lightning in the sky. Rushing by, like a torrent down a steep mountain.

~ Buddha

G'day!

Yes, you heard it right. G'day mate! :)

I have now landed in Oz and been quite busy trying to settle in. It's a very interesting place, very much multicultural. But I have yet to get the guts to speak to these Aussies in their native slang. So far, all i could answer them is "Thanks." LOL!

More stories to come...

Mga Taong Walang Magawa

Sinulat ko ito sa Tagalog kasi umaasa ako na sana ay hinde maintindihan ang mga pinagsasabi ko ng mga taong pakialamero. Hindi ko mawari kung baket kinailangan nyang patulan yung isyu namin dun, eh, kung tutuusin wala namang katuturan yung mga pinagsasabi nya duon. Nakikisawsaw pa! Mahirap talaga 'pag kulang sa pansin ang mga taong ganito. Buti na lang at dinepensahan ako ng asawa ko. Tignan ko lang kung may isasagot pa sya.

Basahin nyo na lang at kayo na ang humusga. Basta asar ako! `L@ngya!

Misunderstood

How is it that misunderstanding still occurs when all has been said and done? No matter how you explain things to another individual, it never seems to get through. What's even frustrating and sad is that this person is the one whom you thought would understand you more than anybody else.

Kids These Days

With the technology evolving, it is no wonder kids these days act a whole lot different than when I was growing up. For one thing, we didn't have these super computers to help us while the time away. Cable TV was never heard of. Mobile phones and text messaging seemed to be an impossibility.

And yet, we turned out right. Sometimes, i pity children now because they can stay glued to the tube all day and end up not even knowing how to ride a bicycle. Or even learn how to play patintero. That's a sad thought.

I'm rambling. Maybe it's just the years talking. I miss the good old days.

Still Floating

It's been more than three weeks since the big day, and yet, i am still floating. Silently adrift. I cannot explain the feeling.

How is that I cannot seem to get enough of browsing through all those pictures or watching endlessly four DVDs of that special event? No matter how many times i indulge in it, the activity never fails to put a smile on my face.

I would even do it all over again. sans the expenses and the stress, of course!

Surprise!

Guess what came in the mail yesterday?

Date: 24 November 2005

By Courier

Interview Reference

Dear Ms E:

Thank you for forwarding your Partner/Fiance visa application to the Australian Embassy by courier. Your application has been checked against the Partner Migration Checklist and is now ready to proceed.

Please contact the Call Centre to make an appointment to lodge your application and attend a partner migration interview.

You must:
> bring your valid passport
> pay the visa fee when you come for your interview.

Yours sincerely,
Australian Embassy Manila

Thank God, after so much documentation and preparation, they did not make us wait any longer. :) I submitted our application last November 22nd only and now, i am to go there for an interview. Amazingly fast, noh? I can hardly believe it myself!

Wish me luck! :)

ang hirap naman!

hay naku. wala na yatang katapusan 'tong mga nararamdaman ko. sunod-sunod na lang at parang ayaw na talaga akong pagbigyang mamuhay ng normal at walang sakit.

nakakapagod na. minsan sawa na ako sa kakapunta sa mga doktor upang magpagamot. more often than not kasi, wala rin naman silang maibibigay na siguradong lunas.

i'm tired of the tests, pati na rin ang pag-inom ng gamot. feeling ko, unti-unti na akong nagiging druggie nito. naaawa ako sa katawan ko. di ko nga maintindihan baket ako ay binibigyan ng mga ganitong mga problema.

some people ask me why i'm getting thinner. maaaring masyado lang akong toxic sa pag-prepare para sa aming nalalapit na kasal. possible ding dulot na ito ng aking sari-saring sakit. hay. minsan natatakot na ako kasi baka naman ibang klaseng karamdaman na ito.

nakakaloka talaga kasi unang-una, hinde ko kailangan ng ganito ngayon. ngayon pa na ubod naman na masaya ako sa piling ng asawa ko. ang dami pa naming gustong gawin. ayoko sana maging hadlang ito kasi nag-uumpisa pa lang kami bilang mag-asawa at gusto kong lubusin ang lahat ng oras namin together dahil ang tagal naming magkahiwalay sa isa't isa. i just can't afford this right now.

sana naman pagbigyan ako.

buhay babae

mahirap ang maging babae. heto ang aking naintindihan in my almost 3 decades of existence in this world.

unang una, maraming ine-expect ang society sa aming mga babae. kawawa tayong mga Pinay kasi may double standard sa society natin. mahirap pa rin i-justify ang mga naiiba nating mga actions kahit pa bang sabihin mong modern na tayo ngayon.

maliban pa dito, ang katawan natin ay ginawa ng Diyos in such a complicated way. tayong mga babae yung in-assign na magbuntis at magdala ng sanggol na ito ng siyam na buwan sa tiyan natin. ang laking hirap nun di ba? hinde pa kasali dyan ang pagreregla tuwing buwan. masakit na, napakahirap pang dalhin.

is it because of the Adam & Eve thing? kasi pinilit ni Eve si Adam kumagat sa apple? ever heard of that theory?

napapaisip lang ako. siguro kasi medyo nadedepress ako ngayon sa karamdaman  ko. ewan ko ba. pagpasensyahan nyo na lang ako. minsan kinekwestyon ko na tuloy ang Diyos. alam kong masama yun, pero i can't help it sometimes.

pasalamat na lang ako at may asawa akong napakabait at napakatyagang magbigay ng suporta nya sa akin lagi. as in, walang sawa. siya ang tanging nagbibigay ng lakas sa akin ngayon para harapin ang lahat ng ito. yun na lang ang aking consolation.

words to live by

a high school friend sent me this in the mail today. very beautiful and inspiring words from Maya Angelou...

I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.

I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.

I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.

I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."

I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back.

I've learned that when ever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.

I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.

I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.

I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

there is so much truth in these!

from the past and into the future

i was at a seminar yesterday for a little bit of continuing education. it has been a while since i attended my last workshop/seminar and i was "thirsting" for new information.

i realized though that since i have already resigned from the Pediatrics Department of our hospital, i may not be able to use it in my present practice anymore (as the topics pertained to kids), BUT rather apply it to our own kids in the future! there's mommy instinct for you! :)

there were two topics taken up yesterday. one was on emotional intelligence and the other discussing the Montessori approach in teaching writing and reading skills. the latter brought back old (but good) memories of my childhood, being a Montessori kid myself. it was so cool to see all those materials again and i felt that i was the only one there who can soooo relate to the experience. most attendees there, by the way, were teachers and were familiar about it. but they may not have had any first hand experience in being a Montessori student.

i was smiling and nodding in agreement the whole time as the speakers presented their slides. they seemed to look at me in a funny way too. i found out later on, after the seminar they gave, that they were connected with the old school i once went to and admitted that they found my face to be a little familiar. to check, i mentioned some of my old teachers back then, and yes, they knew them! and so, the rest was history. we were talking nonstop until it was time for me to go. they even told me to keep in touch. it was just great!

a few days ago, i was having second thoughts of even attending the seminars because i wasn't a practicing pediatric OT anymore. but i am glad i went. it was good to open my eyes more about kids on developing their emotional intelligence (in a mommy sort of way) and also to reconnect with my past. absolutely no regrets!

after the storm

in the midst of a storm, you cannot help but feel utterly lost and dazed. your fears heighten and your hopes dwindle.

but nothing is ever permanent in this life and some day, some time, you know that this, too, shall pass. just don't forget to keep your head above the water.

more than this

after all these years, i learned that it takes more than just common interests to make any relationship work. you may not have a lot of things in common, but most importantly, it is how you are able to relate and live with the other harmoniously.

ultimately, it is all about acceptance and respect -- accepting the other person for what he or she really is and respecting that difference. after all, each and every one of us was created uniquely and not one can be the same, even twins.

just a quote

i found these lines while surfing the web.

The Hebrew Talmud says: 'Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. Not from his head to be superior. But from the side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved.'

quotes have a certain way of affecting me (especially if i can relate or agree wholly to it) that i made it a habit to store anything that catches my eye into my little database.

but i digress. totally feminist stuff we have here, but it is wonderfully written that it somehow helps you forget that it's just one of those women's right demands.

ahhh yes, to be a woman! we so deserve to be loved! :)

life goes on

just getting my groove back from all the hustle and bustle of everyday life. it can be really difficult, especially when you've taken real sharp turns and you just slip.

nevertheless, life must go on. either you continue to wallow in all that muck, or you pick yourself up and clean up all the mess.

sigh of relief

this too shall pass.

i honestly believe in this. nothing, no matter how bad it is, will ever last that long to confuse and disappoint you. question is, though, when will it ever end?

i'm breathing a sigh of relief now. things are looking better these days. just need to hang on some more.

time out

when you're up to your ears with stuff, sometimes you just want to scream your lungs out and run to the nearest exit.

i'm giving myself a time-out. i'd rather face the wall. talk about self-inflicted isolation.

trying times

all this wedding preparations can truly push one's limits. it could only result to two things. either you guys become closer or it tears you apart.

scary. especially the latter.

bye adrian

i got word from my patient's mom today. adrian will be leaving me. he will be assigned to a different therapy set-up. i'm gonna miss the kid. he has always been my favorite patient.

i hope none of my patients get to read this. :P